hello folks.

quick summary. life passed really slowly before results. then results then now days are zooming by as datelines for psc closes. haha i'm too kiasu. sent by registed mail... haha. but hey lots of effort to collect all those documents together and get them all signed can. die die don't lose that packet.

also, i love my job (so far) and i've been doing more stuff that does not involve so much cleaning! (: awesome.

on results day i wanted to hide in art room and not go see all the percentages of A and feel like crap but mr chia kinda nudged me out and syaz was dragging me out and he locked the door behind me -_- so yea i ended up going to the hall anyway. wow. i'm so proud of my sch. terribly proud. even though my results is erm most definitely lower than average, its ok. i just feel so dang proud of rj. and very happy with my grades. when you are with pple who score higher u kinda feel happy for them, after that when you are alone, you can feel happy for yourself:)

and the 2 things i wanted most i got. the whole thing was exactly as how i imaged it would be. in a dream i saw my results. it was not in a column. it was in a row the way our art grades always look like. i spent the next 2 days contemplating what would my expectations be. and how ok i would be if it were like what i saw. maybe thats why i was not disappointed. was not immediately overwhelmed with happiness but oh wells. haha. Thank God for preparing me.

Thank God for my gd results. what is good? Good is when you have tried. no matter how annoyingly difficult something may be. Good is when you have exhausted yourself and it pays off in some way no matter how miniscue. sure i wished i could have worked harder. and fried my brain in j1, but small matter(the studying not the brain), no point regretting. The experience of jc that can transform a person. and i like to think that everything no matter how wonderful or painful, is planned by God to set us apart, transformed for his purpose.

the main issue now is that before results came out i did nothing. i was prepared for the worse hahaha which is that i can't go anywhere. ok thats just a sad excuse for not preparing anything. infact i was all ready to take a gap year. now i donno. its exactly like what mr chia and mrs toh have been saying. and trying to change my mind. i may be changing my mind now. contrary to berny's firm resistance to everyone's bugging her about uni apps. (berny's gap year plan) hahah. i'm still resisting to get started but i think its mainly the slack in discipline. so... working on that. and besides from today i have about 2 mths to churn out stuff to add to my portfolio.

guidance. need direction from Him. i'm not confused, not unsure, but was just reading some devotion thingum and it says to make it a habit to pray before planning. so i'm working on that.

other more current stuff....
1. i'm volunteering with Nparks! whooooot! hahaha. errrr ok i know yall aren't too surprised. but yeaaa.... its so exciting! hahaha. went with px last sat to pull weeds at lower pierce. we decided that regardless of how good or bad results are we can still afford to pull weeds. hee hee.
2. Berny, mrs toh, shuhan and myself are learning driving! mr chia says he will avoid bukit batok area, but its ok la, we are very safe drivers! and driving is fun:) and incase i fail advance theory, i'm not gonna say when is it... hahaha. i won't say when until i pass it, so wait for my gd news!