haha i have not like blogged in about a week. super busy lah. my sleeping times is so screwed like wake at 11am sleep at 4am. i did so much art stuff last week and this week than prob the whole year put together.
fun yes. satisfying yes. pissifying yes. when pple expect so much from you. and when you cannot anticipate that expectation.
jingwei said assume nothing expect everything
if we did that we might as well not sleep. it's a very good thing to keep up there in your head, but yes i can think of a tons of reasons as to why it is not practical. but ultimately i guess it is how in depth you interpret it.
it was so ultimate phrase which i think most of my stuff is guided by until you meet up with something that you never even noticed was a problem and did not recognise it enough to ignore it. if you get what i mean. then wham it comes back at you in a "i'm very dissapointed " way. and face it. no one who reads this blog [yes thats you] can shake of a some one being dissapointed at you. it can be shake of if it is unreasonable, but what if it was something worth expecting but you never saw it comming? haha i am talkin in rounds. shall end here.
workshop today was ok. my workshop specifically was fine. except that i got pretty cooked by the oven. most shrinking plastic pieces turned up very nice. and if it was open again the class might be bigger. but there are some stuff that was irritating to the conductor.
and that would be[not in order]
1) come late [esp if your excuse is that you cannot find the place. come on the venue has been there since last friday. there was TWO announcements today about checking if you dun know. besides that who cares bout the few mins. not that ji jiao. your loss. not a big problem though]
2) dun listen [honestly i dun care if you listen or not. just that if i am talkin something impt. or whatever and you come back and ask the same thing, or make the mistake i told you not to. yes. that would be sad. yes would be a problem if i gave you your own oven. this is why we don't.]
3) help yourself to things i never said were for you or worse things, i say were for you you never take [this is self explainatory.]
4) come and say sorry i din sign up for a workshop. can i join now? [ yes this is really really sad. cos how can lor. you will get into trouble if you dun sign up for a workshop. and i dun know why but i think i was fan enough that i let you join. if my mood good enough by post mortem you will not get into trouble. if not, bao zhong. but think about it. you are defeating the purpose of why the 3 chairs work so hard to collate collect money and organise for the specific number or people. poor lingxi, she collects the money and name list.]
5) DIRTY THE BENCH WITH PERMENENT MARKER AND LEAVE WITHOUT CLEANING. [i even provided soap lah. come on. that is super irresponsible. you were told you have to keep the benches clean. dear whoever, you are the reason why i have to spend time scrubbing for you. ]
haha irritating factors. post mortem is in my book. shall not bore you with that.
issit bad if i am getting more serious about my work? at the point of taking disc i was still so called will do work for pple and very shui bian. but after these 2 weeks ah. like super pushed into doing a lot of things based on duty and inniciative and i just have rite now a relatively lower torlerance to pple who slow things down. ok i always had that low torlerance, but maybe cos now i see more such pple cos of what i do? no idea. but it is causing stress.
ok no. by the time i type till here i know what is the problem. i tot it is cos i demand a lot from them. too much in too little time. but then i realise i am not the one comming out with the demands. i am merely following the expectations and demands of higher authority. of course this is not all the case. sometimes its just me. can you imagine if everything i did was governed by higher authority directly or indirectly? no my life not so sad
but
lesson to learn. if you have subordinates, please spare a thought for them. ok. a thought is not enough. spare many many thoughts for them.
also take inniciatives can make pple happy. but you very miserable. but it does make life for everyone else involves a whole lot easier. so you do the maths.
ok right here i typed something that will get me in trouble if sch sees it. so i delete.
yesterday ben was saying i am a overachiever. i deny, but am i? rite now i would gladly give up art club vchair. but i really want to do that bit for them. if what you do is what you YOURSELF really want yes. that is worth doing i think. so long as you know your limits. art club was never meant to be this busy. just this period of time i hope. but yes i admit there are some stuff that are beyond me. i may choose to take it, but never wanted to do the extra glory for myself or sch thingy. like smp. hoho. i dun really enjoy it. ivp was so so so so so so much better.
luv, wabb
p.s. my next few posts may be as long as this. cos will be away from 7th to 9th at camp with like no contact with the outside world. haha i know you will miss me!!!
ok you can stop choking now...
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